On our local news the other night, they gave the national and local statistics on depression and suicides. It was disturbing to hear how high the numbers were. The numbers, I assume were based on people receiving help or those who have already committed or attempted suicide. What about the ones who are in denial or sitting on the edge?

It bothered me because I have been at both ends of the spectrum. As a child, I was very depressed and it was comfortable to be there. So what changed and how did I work myself out of this dark place. First, you need to know what caused the depression if you want to come out. For me, it happened at the age of four. My mother died and our father walked out on us. This experience plunged me into deep waters for survival.

Luckily, I was too young to understand how to end my life. My mother had taught me to pray before she left. Each night, I prayed for God to end my life. While other children were praying for a bike or something new. I wanted to stop breathing. The pain was too much for me, and I went deeper into depression every time I woke up.

So what happened? How did I come from such a dark beginning to a bright and wonderful life leaving all scars behind me? I did it without medication so I know exactly what steps I took. For the record, there isn’t a magic bullet. You can take steps to prevent yourself from getting in this state and keeping yourself out. Once, you get help.

I want to share what I did in hopes you find something helpful. The turning point in my life came unexpected and it showed me how scarred I was. I was an adult and my negative thought patterns were deeply entranced in my mind. In my book, How to Rebuild Shattered Dreams, I go into detail on how I got into this depression and how I came out. So here, I’m going to only give a highlight. If you want more information, there is always the book.

If you had asked me about depression years ago, I would’ve answered that I had never felt it. I wasn’t lying. What I’m saying is, I had never felt joy so I did not know the difference. How do you understand light, if you had never seen it?

This is what I discovered and I plan on covering it in the next four-blog articles. The plan is to break it down into small bits so you can see something useful to ingrain into your life. We are in denial not because we want to be. We are there because we do not know better or we’re afraid the truth might be unmanageable.

Before you can help yourself, you need to see where you truly are. This can be very frightening. At least, it was for me. Years ago, we had a son from his birth who always seemed angry. He had a big chip on his shoulder.

After weeks of trying different ideas, my husband, Jack came up an idea of taking our son to a mirror and not letting him leave until he had told himself twenty-five times that he loved Josh. After the first week, our son started to change.

For the next few paragraphs, I’m taking excerpts from my book.

In my amazement, Josh started to change. He became happier. One day, Jack invited me to see Josh repeat his words, I love Josh, twenty-five times. Grinning, Josh passed by as Jack smiled at me. Reaching a hand out to me, he asked, “Can you do it?”

Fear consumed me as I attempted to follow Josh. I said, “Sure, anyone can do that. It’s easy.” Before I could leave the doorway, Jack had a hold of my wrists and yanked me into the room. Leaving me in front of the mirror, he stood in the doorway and said, “You do it.”

As I stared at myself, I became even more afraid. The fear became so strong that I felt like Jack had just shoved me into a cage with a hungry tiger. I felt trapped, fear charging throughout every cell of my body. I looked at Jack with my face as white as a ghost. Not giving him notice, I charged him, expecting him to move.

He didn’t and I was so afraid. Not realizing what I was doing, I stepped on his thigh, attempting to climb over him. Jack grabbed a hold and pulled me down. With his arms wrapped around me, he easily brought me back in front of the mirror and repeated his words.

Seeing myself in the mirror, I fought to get away from his grip. Being only ninety-eight pounds, it was easy for Jack to hold me. He repeated his words and I pleaded with him to let me go. When he said no, I felt the invisible arms join him.

Being so familiar with Him, I pleaded with Him to help me get away from Jack. Instantly, I knew HE was was on Jack’s side as well. Looking at myself, I started to cry from the depths of my soul. By doing it, I saw in mind all the layer of shock that I had endured at the hands of others. For the first time, my soul felt the love from the invisible arms.

After being in Jack’s and my creator’s arms, I couldn’t get the vision of all the layers of scars out of my mind. What were they made from? How would i see them now for the first time? I had so many questions, not realizing what was being opened up to me. Hope was being breathed into my life, my soul, and my heart for the first time. It was a chance to rid myself of the pain I had endured for so many years. It started to consume me.

You have to see and embrace the fact you are depressed before you can change anything and get help. Next time, I want to talk about how to recognize the thought patterns that take you down the path towards depression. If you understand how to get there, you will know how to bring yourself back. Sign up for a update at the site www.Rebuild-Shattered-Dreams.com for the next installment.

You can go directly to the survey that is next to this article now or read what the survey is about.

It has been a while since I have written and it hasn’t been because I haven’t wanted to. My life has been turned upside down. Readers from my book “How to Rebuild Shattered Dreams,” have requested me to hold some seminars in our local area.

At the same time I started to do them, I received notice that I needed to rewrite six chapters of my new book due out in June. Everything I was working on was pushed to the side, including the blog. During my three seminars, my eyes were opened up to how many people are struggling with emotional pain and frustration. I have been healed for so many years, I had forgotten what it was like.

It has been overwhelming to realize how many people want me to personally help them rid themselves from emotional pain. Originally, I thought I could do it through blogging, telling people about how our minds process our life experiences. On the blog, I planned on explaining how to rid yourself of pain and prevent new pain to crowd in on your life.

I have spent forty years studying and researching how to heal or remove emotional scars. Somewhere along the way, I discovered how to unlock the mysteries and heal. The best part of it is what I learned is permanent. This has started a frenzy with others who want help.

The most interesting part of doing the three-hour seminar was that I learned how much knowledge I had collected over the past forty years. I expected in the three hours to expel all that I knew. Instead, I found myself lightly skimmed over the surface. When I went home from the first seminar, I wrote an outline of what I knew on each subject. The outline was single spaced and I had nine pages worth of material that I could expound on.

People are asking me for longer seminars. So I put together a short survey to learn what people want to learn. Then I’ll put the basic questions in a twelve to seventeen hour seminar. Please take the survey and tell me how you feel. Besides the survey, I would like you to leave comments on my blog, telling me how you would feel about being a part of a seminar on ridding yourself of emotional pain and live with passion.

Tell me if there was a way to erase tragedy in your life, what would it be worth to you? Please leave me a comment below and let me know how you feel. If you want to learn how my seminars are developing, you can sign up for an email update. Thank you for your time. You can go to the seminar at the top of the page. 

Depression can be complicated because it can have so many facets and triggers. In this series of articles, I’m going to attempt to break them down. This article is going to cover how we perceive what is happening around us.

Our perceptions of life are based on our thoughts. If you have negative thoughts, you see nothing but negative perceptions. Some can say “Hi” to us and we can take it as “What do they want?” We interrupt their words totally wrong, if we are embracing the negative side of life.

Love has a lot to do with our thoughts. Let me start by saying, love and hate are at the feeling and it is attacked to every thought. You might be wondering why love or hate is at the base of every thought? Our spirits come into the world fill with love. So every thought is anchored with the emotion. Somewhere, we choice to deplete our love and hate replaced it.

When we allow others to deplete our love, we can start deep a road of depression. With us being on this road, we see the negative side of everything and decide there is no beauty. If we can’t say something nice about someone, it means, we could be on this destructive path of depression. We could be depressed and not know it.

For an example, I found intermingled with depression was anger. We are usually anger about something. Anger is dangerous to hang onto. When you find your self thinking “this angers me,” you need to move quickly through it and let it go. Some of us chose to hold onto our anger and it can do some serious damage to our body. I can tell some story about it but I’ll talk about it in another article.

We need to let go of our negative thoughts. Another example, we have proven with plants how negative and positive words can affect them. If a plant gets exposed to a contact diet of words of hate. They will grow away from the source or they die. So what are we doing to your self? Depression is the by-product of negative thoughts. Hate and anger can sometimes hold us in this state of depression. You might be in complete control of your depression and maybe not. The maybe not, I want to walk about next.

Some people tell me that they find it hard to think of something positive. Others have expressed to me that they feel depressed about something. They can’t see it or have any knowledge to why they should feel this sad heaviness that is always there. Lately, I’ve heard a lot of people express that they have learned that depression runs in their family. So now how can this happen?

Scientists have proven lately that thoughts and feeling can be passed on from one generation to another. I can explain how this happens scientifically but I won’t go into it now. Right now, you need to know it happens and you need to make a decision on how you’re going to handle it.

So how do you identify if what you are feeling is your thoughts or ancestors? If you’re feeling negative feeling like a heaviness, loneness, and etc, it could easily be an ancestral thought. Especially, if you try to change it and you find yourself frustrated because you struggle to see anything-new happening. You might be able to will a new decision for a while but if you relax for a moment. It is right back there.

When this happens, it can be very frustrating. You feel like you are hitting your head up against a wall, trying to function. You can’t push it away and ignore it. This is a painful depression because you feel helpful to rid yourself of it. When this happens to you, we as humans tend to blame ourselves for your life not going the way we want. It might not be your fault.

If it’s ancestral, you can break the anchor and I’ve learned how to permanently heal the ancestral decision. To give you an example, let me tell you about a man, I happened to be in a class with. When we got onto this subject, he mentioned that he had a problem with hating his in-laws. He explained that he had never experienced anything negative with them but he felt anger and hatred towards any of his date’s parents. Yet, he was quite emotional expressing that he deeply loved his present in-laws. He emphatically expressed they had done nothing to him but show him kindness. So why did he feel this way?

The teacher asked his mind to research out the reason why? In his mind, he shortly saw his great grandfather standing on a porch of his fiancé’ house with a dingy single light. They wouldn’t allow him to see their daughter because they weren’t going to allow her to marry him. They felt he was the right person for her. He made the decision to hate in-laws. Since it was a decision made with a lot of emotions of hate and anger. It affected his progenitors. The decision attacked to his DNA and was passed on his grandson.

Once he had identified the problem, the teacher showed him how to reverse the moment with his great grandfather and permanently erase that memory from being apart of him. He walked out of the class never feeling that emotion again. When our ancestors chose not to forgive someone for their imperfections, their decision can be pass on to you and it can leave you confused and frustrated because you have no idea why you feel this way.

Next time, we’ll talk about more negative decisions that you can control and they cause depression.