Last week, I was diagnosed with a grade three Invasive Ductal Carcinoma or in other words—Breast Cancer. Everyone knows Cancer is a hard and lonely road. The disease combined with the treatments is rough. Everything, I have experienced in my life has prepared me for this moment. I found myself feeling humble, knowing just how to handle each and every moment. I’m so grateful for my past because now I can draw on it to guide me through these dark days.
Hearing the word Cancer, I associate death to it. I’ve heard other people say when you are faced with a possible death. Your regrets flash into your mind and I had one. My one and only regret was that I hadn’t had enough fun in my life. I saw that I had wished or worried most of the time away. I hadn’t really enjoyed each and every moment.
Before I was always thinking about what I needed to do and wishing I had something done or I was at another stage of my life. Kids can push you to wishing that you were at another stage of life.
Worry is a haunting thought. It’s easy to attach worry to everything, especially when it is out of your control. I’m so glad I finely had learned how to eliminate it from my life. I wasn’t even tempted to go there when I heard the word cancer.
My heart ached to have fun and I knew that I couldn’t experience the two emotions at the same time. I had to choose. It took me all of ten seconds to choose fun. I decided that I was going to have fun with every moment and focus on the small miracles around you. A grandchild says his first word and accomplishes his first step. I’ve learned years ago that a positive attitude gives you peace and incredible strengths. Negative rips you apart and can destroy your life.
My choice of being positive has humbled me. It is so powerful. You need to experience it to completely understand it. Being positive, I’m witnessing small miracles all around me. I might see fear in the eyes of those I love and it gives me something to compare my growth too. It feels wonderful to know that how power handling adversity properly. I’m grateful for this experience.
In my book, HOW TO REBUILD SHATTERED DREAMS, I talk about how to do it and it is wonderful to know that the principles are very powerful in your life. When you embrace your shattered dreams, you have peace. Fear, anxiety, depression, and anger all trap you in a cage. It is humbling to be able to measure how much freedom I am experiencing. It doesn’t matter what I go through, I will just fine. Everything is just a moment if you know how to embrace it.
I do not know if I’m going to live long afterward or how the medicines will affect me from getting rid of the cancer. It really doesn’t matter. What does matter is I forgive myself for developing the cancer and accept with love the moment. I feel peace with every possible path this cancer might take me into.
I’ll write a week article on how what is happening in my life with my Breast Cancer.
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November 18th, 2008 at 6:00 pm
First let me say that my heart goes out to you. It is the diagnosis every woman fears, no matter how positive they try to be. What moves me most is your acceptance. Your ability to forgive yourself and loving yourself and the moment. I will definitely stay with you on this journey and I wish you strength and most of all joy.
November 18th, 2008 at 10:01 pm
Thank you so much for your support. I’m surprised to be so touched by your words. After, I read them. I didn’t feel quite alone. It will be a journey and it is nice to have other walk beside me. Tomorrow, I need to go in for a CT scan. The Cancer is in my lymp nobs too.
Thank you,
LaRene
November 20th, 2008 at 3:23 am
LaRene, thank you for having the courage to share your experiences. I have known some breast cancer survivors and I have to say that they are some of the strongest women I have ever met. They also appreciate life in ways that most of us cannot.
My thoughts will be with you during this difficult time.
November 21st, 2008 at 4:38 pm
LaRene,I was thinking about you this morning,so i was please to see an email from you. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I also tend to spend to much time worry about something or thinking about what i need to improve and very little time about having fun. I actually don’t think i know how to have fun. Thank you for reminding me not to only have joy and gratitude in our hearts but to also HAVE FUN!!!
You are a dear friend. My prayers and thoughts are with you. With Love, Stefania
November 22nd, 2008 at 4:41 am
LaRene you are one very strong woman. Whether it is from your life experience or from your natural inner strength doesn’t matter. You have what it takes to beat this.
You attitude of seeking the fun in every day sounds like a wonderful and probably highly effective weapon in your fight.
Power to you.
November 23rd, 2008 at 10:18 pm
your attitude toward this is extraordinary, and i know it will help you pull through. i know many survivors of breast cancer. not an easy road to travel, not at all, but with the way you are tackling it i know that you will prevail. god bless you.
November 29th, 2008 at 11:54 pm
Hi,
How are you doing? Your last post was on the 18Nov and noticed you have not replied to comments. Praying and sending waves of healing in your direction.
December 2nd, 2008 at 12:33 am
Everyone thanks you for your prayers. When I wrote this article, I didn’t know what kind of cancer I had. It is her 2 new positive. I probably did not spell it right. It’s a very aggressive, fast moving cancer that like to spread through the body.
I have tests and scans to show where it has spread. It is in my bones and liver besides the breast. They are starting me on Chemo Thursday. I’ve had surgery to put in a port for the Chemo and bone biopsy.
We all know cancer isn’t an easy road and I’m here to say. I am going to have a long and hard one. Thank you again for your words of encouragement. It was nice to go to Disneyland during the thanksgiving holidays. I had a fun time together with a couple of my children and their family. Thank you again.
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May 29th, 2010 at 6:48 am
Provocative thoughts here. Are you optimistic this is the proper way to look at it though? My own personal experience is that everyone should pretty much live and let live because what one person thinks just — another person simply doesn’t. Individuals are going to do what they want to do. In the end, they always do. The most we can yearn for is to identify a few things here and there that hopefully, allows them to make just a little better informed decision. Otherwise, great post. You’re definitely making me think! –Pamela
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August 29th, 2010 at 12:52 pm
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