Have you ever wondered what is the purpose of having a trying experience in your life?

With October being Breast Cancer awareness month, I decided to write about my Breast Cancer. I want to talk about hope, when you have an incurable cancer.

For  years, I went in for my annual mammogram. They showed no cancer. Then one year, I had a tumor. They scheduled a MRI and it showed a large vein going from tumor to the rest of my body.

With the tumor shooting cancer throughout my body, they knew that I had a very fast, aggressive cancer inside of me. The cancer was starting to nest in my lymph nodes, liver and bones. The doctors told me if it was ten years earlier. They would have sent me home with morphine and an apology.

The last ten years, they have been able to block the cancer from growing but they haven’t been able to cure it. I happened to have all of the qualifications to be a part of a worldwide study of a new drug that is a sister drug to a known blocker for this cancer. Along with chemo, they gave me the drug.

Nine weeks later, they had me take more scans. The scans showed that I had dropped the cancer 75%. The doctors were very excited. Apparently, I was breaking records. The next nine weeks, I showed no change. So they took me off chemo and I keep taking the blocking drugs every twenty nine days. My CT and bone scans showed no change until one day.  Suddenly, everything started to change.

In October of 2009, the cancer in my liver seemed to not stand out on the scans. This was a sock since chemo was suppose to be the way cancer could be removed. In December, my scans were unchanged. I expected to see some change. A friend  suggested that maybe, I told them that they were wrong. Then I started to think back over the last year. Had I done something different during the year to cause or influence the changes?

In going back over the last year, I discovered that I had done something different during each change. In the seventies, I read a book on how to improve your health. The author suggested that you could clean out your body from toxins by creating a drink in your blender. I used it numerous times in the seventies. Over the years, I had forgotten about it until I learned about my cancer.

In the book, the author suggested that you take a 48 oz can of unsweetened pineapple juice and a fresh bunch of parsley and blend them together. The author suggested that you drink nothing but the parsley and pineapple for three days. Before they gave me chemo, I had scans like PET, CT, Bone, MRI’s of the Breast. The green drink came to my mind because I was concerned about all of the chemicals doctors had shot into my veins.

By looking back over my last year, I saw that I had drank the green drink everyday during the first nine weeks. I had a 75% drop in cancer. Again in August, I went back to drinking the green drink for two to three weeks. My scans in October showed the drop in my liver. In December, my scans showed no change.

In January, I decided to start drinking my green drink for a year and see what happened. Along with the drink, I went back on a multi – vitamin that I used when I was having children. My OB/GYN raved about how it affected my babies and me. One of the base ingredients was parsley. I wonder now, if I had stayed with it. I might not have gotten Breast Cancer. It will be a question that will always linger in my mind.

At this time, the news about Vitamin D came out on the news. Research showed it can block cancer. So I took Vitamin D3 & K2. My February scans did not stand out to me as huge drop in cancer. But I never studied Latin in school. The doctors were pleased to see that the cancer wasn’t spreading.

On my April scans, I saw a big difference. Before, they always described the cancer on my bones. They dropped the description and used a new word. Curious, I looked it up to learn the word meant, ‘scar on a tumor.’ Humbled, I was pleased to have remembered the parsley drink and the vitamins made from parsley.

In June, the new word changed to another one. I looked it up to learn that it meant, ‘bony replacement cells.’ My doctor acted very pleased. He told me that during all this time. Chemo was the only drug that was designed to remove cancer. In creating the right environment, your body can do a lot. Since, I have been on the green drink and vitamins. My blood is perfect. If I went into see a doctor for a physical, they would not detect a disease of any kind.

What I do today, the doctors say is impossible. I love to ride horses. He tells me that it is impossible for me to ride because the cancer is in my hips and spine. Normally, it would be too painful to ride. I do it quite often with no pain in my bones.

The medical field believes and so do I that you need to have the right mental attitude to heal. I credit a lot to a book called ( How to Rebuild Shattered Dreams). The books teaches you how create a positive environment in your life. It teaches you how to walk into the unknown unafraid and skilled to handle anything.

For an example, people asked me if I was going to fight my cancer. I responded with ‘no.’ If I had chosen to fight the cancer, I would be programming my mind to detach from my body and not help it to heal. When you love and embrace the moment, the love is bringing towards you healing powers and you have total peace. It is really the most powerful part of the equation.

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I want to thank everyone for your support and prayers. It has been so humbling to see how many strangers care. I deeply appreciate it and I want you all to know it. My life has really been a roller coaster and I really need to get you caught up.

There are different kinds of breast cancer and I have a very aggressive and fast moving cancer. It is called Her2+. They need to run a base line tests so they know how to attack the cancer and see how my body is being affected. The cancer doesn’t want to wait. It has its own agenda.

It has quickly moved to a stage four. This means, the cancer is out of my breast. The pet scan showed it is in bones and liver. They are not doing a mastectomy first. We are starting with Chemo and it will start tomorrow.

Since, I last wrote. I have had a brain MRI, breast MRI, soft tissue cat scan, complete bone scan, heart scan, specific areas scan, bone biopsy and surgery for a port to be placed in my chest underneath the skin. This cancer is unforgiving and they need to stop it now. I’m looking forward to Chemo tomorrow. I have just two scans today and I’m finished for a while.

Another reason, I didn’t write. I went to Disneyland for the holidays. We had it planned to go there before I learned about cancer. I was going with two of my children and seven grandchildren. It was really special even though, it was a little hard. I had my bone biopsy on Tuesday and flew out Wednesday for the magic kingdom. We returned on Monday just in time to have two more scans.

Again, I want to thank everyone for your prayers. I need them. This is going to be interesting to see just how my life will play out. They want to put me on Herceptin and according to the paper they gave me. You are very tired. They are also trying to get me into a study where I will be able to receive some new medicine that isn’t on the market yet.

When I used birth control pills, I had a constant yeast infection for some reason. I solved the problem by using three products. Once I stopped using the birth control pill, I didn’t need to take the three products unless I was putting a new chemical.

With Taxotere having yeast infection as a symptom, I didn’t wait but started to take the three products and I never had a problem. This is what I took:

• The picture to the right is called Treelac. It is live microorganism that are good and what we need in intestines. The box consists of 64 packets. Your body needs microorganisms and they are easily destroyed. If they are, you will get yeast infections or thrush.
• I used active digestive enzyme. The bottle is designed to help people who may experience lactose intolerance, indigestion, IBS, diarrhea and other digestive problems/ concerns.
• The other product I used is a Oxygen Element. It detoxify, energize & oxygenate. A very unique Patented product

The three products have worked wonders and they were great during the Taxotere. You can purchase them here.

Lemons help decongestant a toxic liver. At the same time, it alleviates conditions that are often associated with an overworked liver, such as nausea, headaches, irritability and insomnia.

This is what I used:

• One table spoon of fresh squeezed lemon juice. (Most of the time, I didn’t have the strength to do it. So I used Minute Maid – frozen lemon juice.
• One drop of Lemon Oil.
• One drop of Peppermint Oil.
• I did it every night after I received the taxotere. On the last week before the infusion, I would do it every other night.

I would use the lemon and peppermint oil in a sits bath with epson salts. It seemed to help to do with every other month. You can order the oil here.

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In nine weeks my cancer almost disappeared. I went from a stage four, having three lymph nodes invaded by cancer, along with ninety percent of one breast, with Invasive Ductal Carcinoma being GONE. My cancer was a very aggressive carcinoma, which allowed it to be in other places outside of my breast. I had it in my bones and liver. They both had four separate places of cancer.

After nine weeks of chemo, they gave me another CAT scan.  They found it gone in my bones, lymph nodes, and breast. My liver still showed cancer, but it was smaller. So the radiologist measured the difference. They found the cancer had decreased by 70% in nine weeks.

There is more wonderful news. The doctor can’t feel any hard material in my breast and lymph nodes. The CAT scan indicated that it couldn’t detect a dead tumor in my breast or lymph nodes too. So how did it happen? I will share with you what I did and you can decide for yourself.

It was a combination of events. The one I feel had the most impact on me removing the cancer is a new drug that I’m testing for the FDA. I’ve also programmed my mind to work with the chemo to help destroy and eliminate the cancer from my body, by creating additional chemical.

There is more, and this part is important! I kept myself in a state of love for my situation and myself. Fear, worry, and doubt weren’t an option for me. I stayed in a state of gratitude and love for my situation. This is crucial when you are dealing with your body and mind. Negative thoughts pull you away from the healing powers of your Creator and His help. You need a package deal to pull this off and I’m pleased with the results and so is the doctor.

Another very important part of my package was I had hundreds of people praying for a miracle and it worked. All of the above acts played an important role, including what you eat. During this time, ninety percent of my diet was food that has been proven to heal. I felt the difference in my life and I plan on continuing it into the future.

In the very beginning of my cancer journey, a dear friend gave me a book put out by the University of California, San Diego Medical Center, Moores Cancer Center. They research healing foods. It’s called Discover the Healing Power of Food.

I quote: We believe that food nourishes the body, nurtures the spirit, and is essential for health and healing.

Vegetables, fruits, whole grains, and legumes have long been recognized as good sources of vitamins, minerals, and fiber. New research suggests that many of these plant-based foods contain other healing substances called phytochemicals (plant chemicals). These phytochemicals help protect plant-based foods from disease, and studies are revealing that eating a diet with plenty of phytochemical-rich foods may help protect humans from disease as well.

If you want more information regarding this book, you can find it at www.healthyeating.ucsd.edu. All proceeds from the sale of this book go to the Cancer Prevention and Control Program of the Moores UCSD Cancer Center.

Another act I did was to use essential oils to help sooth the effects of the chemo. I highly recommend them to be used properly. I plan on writing a separate article regarding them in the future. There is a lot to say about this and I found the oils to be very soothing. I deeply appreciated the knowledge that my son had about them. He and his wife had attended numerous classes. I felt very good about my complete routine and it helped me to enjoy the process, and that is saying a lot. Cancer and chemo can be rough and hard to handle personally.

I couldn't find a bowl of cherries that I liked.

Cancer is a life-altering experience. It’s a wonderful time to reflect on your life. Most of us will ask the questions like: What have I done with my life? What would I do differently, if I could do it over again? Is there more I want to accomplish? With life being so fragile, we start to look at the future differently. What do I want to do with the time I have left?
The questions above, we will usually ask ourselves, plus the question, why me? I left it out because it is the most negative thought you can have. When we are in timeout, we really need to think about our successes. Timeout is an expression that I use whenever I find myself sick or hurt and I can’t do a lot physically. During these moments, we get the opportunity to reflect on our lives.
I’ve been in timeout for four months and I’m appreciative of it. Before cancer, I was helping others with erasing past issues that they couldn’t get rid of on their own. Now, I can’t reach out to them. I miss it deeply. In the past, people would come in and leave with a smile on their face. At that instant, they weren’t sure if I had helped. They just knew that they felt differently. So I never truly saw how it affected their daily lives. With me being unable to help others, they are telling me how helpful I had been. They’re waiting for me to get better because they have other areas that they want help with.
We all have an impact on each other that we usually do not realize. The movie It’s a Wonderful Life with Jimmy Stewart is a perfect example. We can positively and negatively impact others. It’s a choice that we all make. The question you need to ask yourself: Am I like Mr. Potter who wants to control and take what he can without giving back? Taking every opportunity to twist it to my benefit?
Or are we the kind of person that Jimmy Stewart is like? A person with a caring heart, being patient and long suffering for the benefit of others. If you’re a good parent, you’ll feel this way. What about others around you?  What do they need, and have you seen it or ignored them?
Being stopped from really being around people gave me a new perspective on how we impact each other and ourselves. I’m grateful for the opportunity to witness it. Helping people is an art that many of us lose in the day-to-day world. So what makes it an art? There are questions that we need to be asking ourselves. What is our motivation in helping someone? Do we do it without expecting anything back? Do we do it for the praise of others? The person who does it without expecting anything back is the person who will find the most pleasure from giving to others.
With the economy going down, there are a lot of opportunities to reach out. Even if you are a person in need, I suggest you find someone who needs more help than you do. It’s in the true giving that you will find your pain eased and what you need. It might not come in the same hour, but it will come. If you have the attitude of gratefulness, it will come back bigger than you imagined.
When we truly give to others, it eases our pain, bringing great joy to our hearts. If you’re emotionally hurting, it’s the best painkiller you can take. Today, I have for the first time people all around me reaching out to lift my burden. I feel their prayers and the joy in their eyes to see they are helping me. It’s a different experience to see it from the person who needs help.
This is a scripture from the Bible that I like. It says: “Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.” Matt. 10:8. It’s the giving freely that brings the joy into our lives. It’s also important that we realize the areas that have been given to us. In other words, count how many things are good and right in your life and focus on them. What have you been given? So many times we forget and just focus on what we don’t have.
Sometimes, we feel like we have nothing to give. You need to fill your cup. This is one of the best ways to fill it: Visualize putting your arms around yourself. Sometimes, you need to hold yourself until you feel peace in your heart. Remember, you need to put your arms around yourself when you feel lonely, frustrated, or angry. It helps to melt away the negativity and bring you back to the positive emotions. When you are plugged into the positive, you will bring many wonderful experiences and opportunities into your life. You should never forget it.

If you want more information, you might want to purchase my book.

I have started my chemo and it is a blessing. Yes, it is tough but I’m lucky to have it. Since, I’m at the Huntsman Cancer Center at the Mckay-Dee Hospital, I get to participate in a study with a new drug. I’m lucky they are testing this new drug for my cancer. Since, they couldn’t remove my breast. I can easily see and feel the tumor and it rapidly shrinking.

It has been only twelve days and the tumor is half the size it was before. I’m so grateful to be apart of this new drug. Every time, I wonder if I can live with the side effects of the regular cancer medicine, they are giving me. I think of how fast my tumor is shrinking. IT will be interesting to what the doctor says on Dec. 23rd. He hasn’t seen it. I will tell you what happens with him next time.

Thank you for your support. For books and help with getting through the side effects of chemo, click here.

On November 14, 2008, I received a MRI for breast cancer. Of course, I had a grade three invasive ductal carcinoma of the left breast. Before the MRI, they ordered a biopsy of the breast, lymph nodes, and bone. All three were positive. The next step was the MRI.

When you receive a breast MRI, they pick up apart of the liver. They saw lesions on the exposed part of the liver on my first MRI. The radiologist order a PET, CT, bone scans, and the removal of my left breast. He put in his summary that I was in the late states of cancer.

The reason for this article is not about my left breast. It’s about my right breast. He saw a smug on it and he ordered a six-month follow up MRI. Something happened from the first to the MRI and it left the doctors perplexed.

When the surgeon studied the scans, he refused to do the surgery because he did not have enough healthy tissue to close the breast. It was decided to shrink the tumor that looked so large on the MRI. It had a large vein feeding it. The tumor was taking everything that I had to offer.

On Dec. 4th, 2008, I received my first chemo and target drugs. On Dec. 23, 2008, I had my second infusion of chemo and drugs. When the doctor examined my breast, it had completely changed. Before the drugs, it was hard like an orange and distorted. With my second infusion, the breast was soft, hanging normally, and the nipple had popped out. What was stranger was that you couldn’t feel anything hard inside the breast. Where was the tumor? So far, it never reappeared.

They ordered a CT scan on February 3rd, 2009 so they could peak inside the body. They found nothing in the left breast and the lymph nodes. In some place on my liver, the cancer was gone. The places I had left measured a drop of 70%. Again, they couldn’t find a dead tumor. So they continued with the target drugs and chemo.

On April 9th, 2009, they revisited the liver through CT scans. My oncologist was excited to find the cancer had not increased or reappeared in place where they had seen it. He did not go into a lot of detail. It was explained to me that it had not increased and it was stabilizing nicely. I was not sure what that meant and they didn’t seem to want to give out more information. They were excited and I was confused to why? I never asked.

In the first of May, I received my request for a follow up breast MRI and it was setup. What happened after the MRI I deep appreciate. Around dinnertime, I received a call from the radiologist. We talked for about thirty minutes. He asked me some very interesting questions. Below is the question he asked that meant the most to me.

“Did they prove you had cancer outside the breast or did they just assume you had it?”

It was nice to tell him. I had a breast, lymph node, and bone biopsy that was positive. He peppered me with questions to why I didn’t have the breast removed. Finally, after he exhausted all of his questions, he told me something that meant so much to me.

He said, “When you have cancer, it always leaves a scar, a smug, or something on the liver especially. On the liver, I do not see a smug or a shadow. Your liver looks like you never had cancer at all. I’ve never seen this before.” He also mentioned the right breast had the smug gone too.

He went on wondering what I did. The conversation left me in deep thought. I went back through everything. This is what I concluded, I came into this event of cancer healthy. I wasn’t taking any drugs. Instead, I used my mind to keep myself healthy. Outside of getting a monogram or a pad smear, I never needed to see a doctor.

We all program out minds with our words everyday. I learned how to program it on purpose. On the first day of drugs, I programmed my mind to study the drugs and create other chemicals that would work with those I was given. I wanted the chemicals to remove all signs that I ever had cancer.

I had forgotten about doing this. The radiologist reminded me that I did it, when he asked, “Did you receive radiation?” I told him no. Then he asked, “Have you been doing body building?”

My body tone was barely returning and I still felt weak. He went on to tell me that my left pectoral muscle was plumper than it was on the first MRI. In his summary, he wrote associated findings: “This is intense enhancement of patient’s left pectoral muscle. This is of uncertain significance and if diffused. This likely does not represent tumor involvement before of its diffuse nature.”

Two days before I went in for the MRI, my left ribs shift forward on its own. In my youth, I had twisted my ribs in a trampoline accident. Before the cancer, I programmed my mind to reverse the accident and move my body back to its original form. When my ribs shifted, it felt so wonderful. They had been frozen in the wrong position for forty-four years.

The radiologist reminded me that my mind was still working on moving my body back to its original position. It was there I remembered that I programed it to remove the sign of cancer and work with the doctor’s drugs.

Doctors have talked about for years how powerful our minds are. They can work against or for us. You choose it with you words. I’m so grateful that I learned how to capture the power of the mind and change lives.

In life, we stumble across a few things that change our live and we want to share them. You might know someone who is going through chemo and it might help them. With each infusion of chemo, I received shingles, rashes and hemorrhoids. On the fourth infusion, the hemorrhoids started to bleed. I had never experienced hemorrhoids before and I hope that I never do. 

When I was mother with small children, I used herbs all the time. It saved me a few trips to the doctors. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I remembered that there were herbs for hemorrhoids. So I dusted off my books and I started to read. 

Sure enough, I found more than one. Luckily, I had one of the herbs mentioned on my shelf. Since, I wasn’t suppose to be out in public. I was elated. I took two capsules twice a day. By the time, I reached the tenth day. I was surprised to realize how raw my bowls had been. Now, they felt normal.

This happened in time for me to receive my next infusion of taxotere. I continued with the herb Psyllum Husks during my chemo treatments. What happened shocked me. My rashes and shingles never returned.  Also, my hair and nails stopped falling out. Instead, they started to grow and kept on growing during my infusions.

I shaved my hair in the beginning. On my seventh infusion, I  shaved another inch of hair off so it would match my new hair growth. Before, I discovered Psyllium Husk, I lost hair on my sides and top. I also wanted to point out that hair on my legs started to grow too and I wasn’t pleased with it.  

It’s important to keep your immune system working well to help your body remove the cancer. In nine weeks, the cancer was gone from my breast and 70% from my liver. I will know in June 2009, if it is all gone from my liver. It might be a new drug that I’m testing for the FDA that is causing my wonderful recovery. It’s also common sense that we need to keep our immune system strong enough to help the doctors remove the cancer. 

For me, I had a hard time getting out to a store. So I made the oils and herbs available along with my books. Don’t feel like you need to buy my books. I do hope you’ll buy the herbs and oils. They worked wonderfully and I hope they do for you. You find the link here to more information.

Let me know, if you know of something that has worked. We can share it.

We have all been told that Herceptin might damage the left heart. I wanted to help strength it long with helping immune system.

• Lemongrass – was what I picked. I made up one capsule once a day. It consisted of eight drops and rest Message Oil.
• It suppose to improve muscle tone throughout the body.
• Nervous exhaustion as it energizes and yet soothes the body.
• Strengthen heart.
• You can order it here.