Last week, I was diagnosed with a grade three Invasive Ductal Carcinoma or in other words—Breast Cancer. Everyone knows Cancer is a hard and lonely road. The disease combined with the treatments is rough. Everything, I have experienced in my life has prepared me for this moment. I found myself feeling humble, knowing just how to handle each and every moment. I’m so grateful for my past because now I can draw on it to guide me through these dark days.

Hearing the word Cancer, I associate death to it. I’ve heard other people say when you are faced with a possible death. Your regrets flash into your mind and I had one. My one and only regret was that I hadn’t had enough fun in my life.  I saw that I had wished or worried most of the time away. I hadn’t really enjoyed each and every moment.

Before I was always thinking about what I needed to do and wishing I had something done or I was at another stage of my life. Kids can push you to wishing that you were at another stage of life.

Worry is a haunting thought. It’s easy to attach worry to everything, especially when it is out of your control. I’m so glad I finely had learned how to eliminate it from my life. I wasn’t even tempted to go there when I heard the word cancer.

My heart ached to have fun and I knew that I couldn’t experience the two emotions at the same time. I had to choose. It took me all of ten seconds to choose fun. I decided that I was going to have fun with every moment and focus on the small miracles around you. A grandchild says his first word and accomplishes his first step. I’ve learned years ago that a positive attitude gives you peace and incredible strengths. Negative rips you apart and can destroy your life.

My choice of being positive has humbled me. It is so powerful. You need to experience it to completely understand it. Being positive, I’m witnessing small miracles all around me. I might see fear in the eyes of those I love and it gives me something to compare my growth too. It feels wonderful to know that how power handling adversity properly. I’m grateful for this experience.

In my book, HOW TO REBUILD SHATTERED DREAMS, I talk about how to do it and it is wonderful to know that the principles are very powerful in your life. When you embrace your shattered dreams, you have peace. Fear, anxiety, depression, and anger all trap you in a cage. It is humbling to be able to measure how much freedom I am experiencing. It doesn’t matter what I go through, I will just fine. Everything is just a moment if you know how to embrace it.

I do not know if I’m going to live long afterward or how the medicines will affect me from getting rid of the cancer. It really doesn’t matter. What does matter is I forgive myself for developing the cancer and accept with love the moment. I feel peace with every possible path this cancer might take me into.

I’ll write a week article on how what is happening in my life with my Breast Cancer.

You are probably wondering why one website would feature Confessions of an Aspiring Author, and a Healing Coach. Let me break them down and explain. The main reason is this is who I am.  The title Rebuild Shattered Dreams is a book that I wrote about my journey of being abandoned at the age of four. What amazing lessons on life, I learned.

I learned how to stop sabotaging myself and build the kind of life, I desire. Even when life throws you a curve, I found what I learned from my past very valuable. On November 10, 2008, I was diagnosed with grade three – Invasive Ductal Carcinoma or in other word – Breast Cancer. You are always shocked but it took me only five minutes to bring my life back into focus and feel okay about my challenge. I was back in control again.

In this book, I wrote about my experiences as a lost soul, abandoned and unwanted at the age of four. In my life, I learned the principles that bring you peace and protected from pain, fear, anger, guilt or frustration. With my emotional scars removed, I was free to decided how I was going to handle my Breast Cancer. No old programing interfered with my choices. I was free to choose peace and love. Every second of my life is filled with it. My invisible prisons are gone and they did not return with the news of cancer.

Breast Cancer is a new twist in my life. It doesn’t need to a negative one. I’m looking forward to see where it is going to take my family and I. There is always a silver lining in any situation. I’m deeply grateful to know exactly how to open it. I am truly in control of my life and it feel great even though I have a foreign substance inside of me, trying to kill me.

I’m so grateful that I have learned how to remove my emotional scars and change my Core Beliefs. Our family is very fearful of cancer but I am not. I embrace it and I feel a deep peace. Those around me feel it too. You radiate out your feeling and thoughts and others feel it. If you want to join me on this adventure, you can go to My Journal at the top of the website to read more.