Have you ever wondered what is the purpose of having a trying experience in your life?

With October being Breast Cancer awareness month, I decided to write about my Breast Cancer. I want to talk about hope, when you have an incurable cancer.

For  years, I went in for my annual mammogram. They showed no cancer. Then one year, I had a tumor. They scheduled a MRI and it showed a large vein going from tumor to the rest of my body.

With the tumor shooting cancer throughout my body, they knew that I had a very fast, aggressive cancer inside of me. The cancer was starting to nest in my lymph nodes, liver and bones. The doctors told me if it was ten years earlier. They would have sent me home with morphine and an apology.

The last ten years, they have been able to block the cancer from growing but they haven’t been able to cure it. I happened to have all of the qualifications to be a part of a worldwide study of a new drug that is a sister drug to a known blocker for this cancer. Along with chemo, they gave me the drug.

Nine weeks later, they had me take more scans. The scans showed that I had dropped the cancer 75%. The doctors were very excited. Apparently, I was breaking records. The next nine weeks, I showed no change. So they took me off chemo and I keep taking the blocking drugs every twenty nine days. My CT and bone scans showed no change until one day.  Suddenly, everything started to change.

In October of 2009, the cancer in my liver seemed to not stand out on the scans. This was a sock since chemo was suppose to be the way cancer could be removed. In December, my scans were unchanged. I expected to see some change. A friend  suggested that maybe, I told them that they were wrong. Then I started to think back over the last year. Had I done something different during the year to cause or influence the changes?

In going back over the last year, I discovered that I had done something different during each change. In the seventies, I read a book on how to improve your health. The author suggested that you could clean out your body from toxins by creating a drink in your blender. I used it numerous times in the seventies. Over the years, I had forgotten about it until I learned about my cancer.

In the book, the author suggested that you take a 48 oz can of unsweetened pineapple juice and a fresh bunch of parsley and blend them together. The author suggested that you drink nothing but the parsley and pineapple for three days. Before they gave me chemo, I had scans like PET, CT, Bone, MRI’s of the Breast. The green drink came to my mind because I was concerned about all of the chemicals doctors had shot into my veins.

By looking back over my last year, I saw that I had drank the green drink everyday during the first nine weeks. I had a 75% drop in cancer. Again in August, I went back to drinking the green drink for two to three weeks. My scans in October showed the drop in my liver. In December, my scans showed no change.

In January, I decided to start drinking my green drink for a year and see what happened. Along with the drink, I went back on a multi – vitamin that I used when I was having children. My OB/GYN raved about how it affected my babies and me. One of the base ingredients was parsley. I wonder now, if I had stayed with it. I might not have gotten Breast Cancer. It will be a question that will always linger in my mind.

At this time, the news about Vitamin D came out on the news. Research showed it can block cancer. So I took Vitamin D3 & K2. My February scans did not stand out to me as huge drop in cancer. But I never studied Latin in school. The doctors were pleased to see that the cancer wasn’t spreading.

On my April scans, I saw a big difference. Before, they always described the cancer on my bones. They dropped the description and used a new word. Curious, I looked it up to learn the word meant, ‘scar on a tumor.’ Humbled, I was pleased to have remembered the parsley drink and the vitamins made from parsley.

In June, the new word changed to another one. I looked it up to learn that it meant, ‘bony replacement cells.’ My doctor acted very pleased. He told me that during all this time. Chemo was the only drug that was designed to remove cancer. In creating the right environment, your body can do a lot. Since, I have been on the green drink and vitamins. My blood is perfect. If I went into see a doctor for a physical, they would not detect a disease of any kind.

What I do today, the doctors say is impossible. I love to ride horses. He tells me that it is impossible for me to ride because the cancer is in my hips and spine. Normally, it would be too painful to ride. I do it quite often with no pain in my bones.

The medical field believes and so do I that you need to have the right mental attitude to heal. I credit a lot to a book called ( How to Rebuild Shattered Dreams). The books teaches you how create a positive environment in your life. It teaches you how to walk into the unknown unafraid and skilled to handle anything.

For an example, people asked me if I was going to fight my cancer. I responded with ‘no.’ If I had chosen to fight the cancer, I would be programming my mind to detach from my body and not help it to heal. When you love and embrace the moment, the love is bringing towards you healing powers and you have total peace. It is really the most powerful part of the equation.

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Last week, I was diagnosed with a grade three Invasive Ductal Carcinoma or in other words—Breast Cancer. Everyone knows Cancer is a hard and lonely road. The disease combined with the treatments is rough. Everything, I have experienced in my life has prepared me for this moment. I found myself feeling humble, knowing just how to handle each and every moment. I’m so grateful for my past because now I can draw on it to guide me through these dark days.

Hearing the word Cancer, I associate death to it. I’ve heard other people say when you are faced with a possible death. Your regrets flash into your mind and I had one. My one and only regret was that I hadn’t had enough fun in my life.  I saw that I had wished or worried most of the time away. I hadn’t really enjoyed each and every moment.

Before I was always thinking about what I needed to do and wishing I had something done or I was at another stage of my life. Kids can push you to wishing that you were at another stage of life.

Worry is a haunting thought. It’s easy to attach worry to everything, especially when it is out of your control. I’m so glad I finely had learned how to eliminate it from my life. I wasn’t even tempted to go there when I heard the word cancer.

My heart ached to have fun and I knew that I couldn’t experience the two emotions at the same time. I had to choose. It took me all of ten seconds to choose fun. I decided that I was going to have fun with every moment and focus on the small miracles around you. A grandchild says his first word and accomplishes his first step. I’ve learned years ago that a positive attitude gives you peace and incredible strengths. Negative rips you apart and can destroy your life.

My choice of being positive has humbled me. It is so powerful. You need to experience it to completely understand it. Being positive, I’m witnessing small miracles all around me. I might see fear in the eyes of those I love and it gives me something to compare my growth too. It feels wonderful to know that how power handling adversity properly. I’m grateful for this experience.

In my book, HOW TO REBUILD SHATTERED DREAMS, I talk about how to do it and it is wonderful to know that the principles are very powerful in your life. When you embrace your shattered dreams, you have peace. Fear, anxiety, depression, and anger all trap you in a cage. It is humbling to be able to measure how much freedom I am experiencing. It doesn’t matter what I go through, I will just fine. Everything is just a moment if you know how to embrace it.

I do not know if I’m going to live long afterward or how the medicines will affect me from getting rid of the cancer. It really doesn’t matter. What does matter is I forgive myself for developing the cancer and accept with love the moment. I feel peace with every possible path this cancer might take me into.

I’ll write a week article on how what is happening in my life with my Breast Cancer.

I want to thank everyone for your support and prayers. It has been so humbling to see how many strangers care. I deeply appreciate it and I want you all to know it. My life has really been a roller coaster and I really need to get you caught up.

There are different kinds of breast cancer and I have a very aggressive and fast moving cancer. It is called Her2+. They need to run a base line tests so they know how to attack the cancer and see how my body is being affected. The cancer doesn’t want to wait. It has its own agenda.

It has quickly moved to a stage four. This means, the cancer is out of my breast. The pet scan showed it is in bones and liver. They are not doing a mastectomy first. We are starting with Chemo and it will start tomorrow.

Since, I last wrote. I have had a brain MRI, breast MRI, soft tissue cat scan, complete bone scan, heart scan, specific areas scan, bone biopsy and surgery for a port to be placed in my chest underneath the skin. This cancer is unforgiving and they need to stop it now. I’m looking forward to Chemo tomorrow. I have just two scans today and I’m finished for a while.

Another reason, I didn’t write. I went to Disneyland for the holidays. We had it planned to go there before I learned about cancer. I was going with two of my children and seven grandchildren. It was really special even though, it was a little hard. I had my bone biopsy on Tuesday and flew out Wednesday for the magic kingdom. We returned on Monday just in time to have two more scans.

Again, I want to thank everyone for your prayers. I need them. This is going to be interesting to see just how my life will play out. They want to put me on Herceptin and according to the paper they gave me. You are very tired. They are also trying to get me into a study where I will be able to receive some new medicine that isn’t on the market yet.

I couldn't find a bowl of cherries that I liked.

Cancer is a life-altering experience. It’s a wonderful time to reflect on your life. Most of us will ask the questions like: What have I done with my life? What would I do differently, if I could do it over again? Is there more I want to accomplish? With life being so fragile, we start to look at the future differently. What do I want to do with the time I have left?
The questions above, we will usually ask ourselves, plus the question, why me? I left it out because it is the most negative thought you can have. When we are in timeout, we really need to think about our successes. Timeout is an expression that I use whenever I find myself sick or hurt and I can’t do a lot physically. During these moments, we get the opportunity to reflect on our lives.
I’ve been in timeout for four months and I’m appreciative of it. Before cancer, I was helping others with erasing past issues that they couldn’t get rid of on their own. Now, I can’t reach out to them. I miss it deeply. In the past, people would come in and leave with a smile on their face. At that instant, they weren’t sure if I had helped. They just knew that they felt differently. So I never truly saw how it affected their daily lives. With me being unable to help others, they are telling me how helpful I had been. They’re waiting for me to get better because they have other areas that they want help with.
We all have an impact on each other that we usually do not realize. The movie It’s a Wonderful Life with Jimmy Stewart is a perfect example. We can positively and negatively impact others. It’s a choice that we all make. The question you need to ask yourself: Am I like Mr. Potter who wants to control and take what he can without giving back? Taking every opportunity to twist it to my benefit?
Or are we the kind of person that Jimmy Stewart is like? A person with a caring heart, being patient and long suffering for the benefit of others. If you’re a good parent, you’ll feel this way. What about others around you?  What do they need, and have you seen it or ignored them?
Being stopped from really being around people gave me a new perspective on how we impact each other and ourselves. I’m grateful for the opportunity to witness it. Helping people is an art that many of us lose in the day-to-day world. So what makes it an art? There are questions that we need to be asking ourselves. What is our motivation in helping someone? Do we do it without expecting anything back? Do we do it for the praise of others? The person who does it without expecting anything back is the person who will find the most pleasure from giving to others.
With the economy going down, there are a lot of opportunities to reach out. Even if you are a person in need, I suggest you find someone who needs more help than you do. It’s in the true giving that you will find your pain eased and what you need. It might not come in the same hour, but it will come. If you have the attitude of gratefulness, it will come back bigger than you imagined.
When we truly give to others, it eases our pain, bringing great joy to our hearts. If you’re emotionally hurting, it’s the best painkiller you can take. Today, I have for the first time people all around me reaching out to lift my burden. I feel their prayers and the joy in their eyes to see they are helping me. It’s a different experience to see it from the person who needs help.
This is a scripture from the Bible that I like. It says: “Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.” Matt. 10:8. It’s the giving freely that brings the joy into our lives. It’s also important that we realize the areas that have been given to us. In other words, count how many things are good and right in your life and focus on them. What have you been given? So many times we forget and just focus on what we don’t have.
Sometimes, we feel like we have nothing to give. You need to fill your cup. This is one of the best ways to fill it: Visualize putting your arms around yourself. Sometimes, you need to hold yourself until you feel peace in your heart. Remember, you need to put your arms around yourself when you feel lonely, frustrated, or angry. It helps to melt away the negativity and bring you back to the positive emotions. When you are plugged into the positive, you will bring many wonderful experiences and opportunities into your life. You should never forget it.

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I have started my chemo and it is a blessing. Yes, it is tough but I’m lucky to have it. Since, I’m at the Huntsman Cancer Center at the Mckay-Dee Hospital, I get to participate in a study with a new drug. I’m lucky they are testing this new drug for my cancer. Since, they couldn’t remove my breast. I can easily see and feel the tumor and it rapidly shrinking.

It has been only twelve days and the tumor is half the size it was before. I’m so grateful to be apart of this new drug. Every time, I wonder if I can live with the side effects of the regular cancer medicine, they are giving me. I think of how fast my tumor is shrinking. IT will be interesting to what the doctor says on Dec. 23rd. He hasn’t seen it. I will tell you what happens with him next time.

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In life, we stumble across a few things that change our live and we want to share them. You might know someone who is going through chemo and it might help them. With each infusion of chemo, I received shingles, rashes and hemorrhoids. On the fourth infusion, the hemorrhoids started to bleed. I had never experienced hemorrhoids before and I hope that I never do. 

When I was mother with small children, I used herbs all the time. It saved me a few trips to the doctors. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I remembered that there were herbs for hemorrhoids. So I dusted off my books and I started to read. 

Sure enough, I found more than one. Luckily, I had one of the herbs mentioned on my shelf. Since, I wasn’t suppose to be out in public. I was elated. I took two capsules twice a day. By the time, I reached the tenth day. I was surprised to realize how raw my bowls had been. Now, they felt normal.

This happened in time for me to receive my next infusion of taxotere. I continued with the herb Psyllum Husks during my chemo treatments. What happened shocked me. My rashes and shingles never returned.  Also, my hair and nails stopped falling out. Instead, they started to grow and kept on growing during my infusions.

I shaved my hair in the beginning. On my seventh infusion, I  shaved another inch of hair off so it would match my new hair growth. Before, I discovered Psyllium Husk, I lost hair on my sides and top. I also wanted to point out that hair on my legs started to grow too and I wasn’t pleased with it.  

It’s important to keep your immune system working well to help your body remove the cancer. In nine weeks, the cancer was gone from my breast and 70% from my liver. I will know in June 2009, if it is all gone from my liver. It might be a new drug that I’m testing for the FDA that is causing my wonderful recovery. It’s also common sense that we need to keep our immune system strong enough to help the doctors remove the cancer. 

For me, I had a hard time getting out to a store. So I made the oils and herbs available along with my books. Don’t feel like you need to buy my books. I do hope you’ll buy the herbs and oils. They worked wonderfully and I hope they do for you. You find the link here to more information.

Let me know, if you know of something that has worked. We can share it.

My fourth infusion was horrible. The rashes were extra  miserable with me getting shingles with it. My bowls ached and I experienced hemorrhoids for the first time in my life. My finger and toes felt like they had been smashed in a door. They gave me a shot for white blood count that increased my pain.

Years ago, I was into herbs. I used them all the time with my children to save on doctor costs. Over the years, I forgot about them since I never seemed to see a doctor because I was ill. With my problems, I decided to pull out my books and dust them off. When I looked up hemorrhoids, I had a lot of choices. One herb I had in the house and the code was still fresh. So I took two in the morning and two capsules at night. Ten days later, I found my bowls feel wonderful. I didn’t realize how bad I felt until I had something to compare them against.

After the ten days, I decided to keep taking one capsule in the morning and one at night to keep them from coming back. What happened surprised me. The herb removed more than the hemorrhoids. Even with my next three infusions of Taxotere, I had relief from:

• Hemorrhoids and my bowls feeling tender
• My hair stopped falling out. Instead, my hair on my head started to grow back.
• The dry skin sensation lessened
• The rashes and shingles never came back
• My nail started to grow with a healthy pink color. On my fifth infusion, my nails started to separate away from my fingers. The healthy pink grow keep on growing while I clipped the top. By the time, I received my seventh infusion of Taxotere. My nails had grown an health pink halfway up. My nails always had grown very past.

This wonderful herb was PSYLLIUM HUSKS. When I went to the store to buy another bottle, I was surprised at how many choices. I bought what I already had used. It worked! When I decided to share this experience with others, I decided to make it easy for you to find the one I used.

You can click here and it will take you to my secure shopping cart.