On November 14, 2008, I received a MRI for breast cancer. Of course, I had a grade three invasive ductal carcinoma of the left breast. Before the MRI, they ordered a biopsy of the breast, lymph nodes, and bone. All three were positive. The next step was the MRI.

When you receive a breast MRI, they pick up apart of the liver. They saw lesions on the exposed part of the liver on my first MRI. The radiologist order a PET, CT, bone scans, and the removal of my left breast. He put in his summary that I was in the late states of cancer.

The reason for this article is not about my left breast. It’s about my right breast. He saw a smug on it and he ordered a six-month follow up MRI. Something happened from the first to the MRI and it left the doctors perplexed.

When the surgeon studied the scans, he refused to do the surgery because he did not have enough healthy tissue to close the breast. It was decided to shrink the tumor that looked so large on the MRI. It had a large vein feeding it. The tumor was taking everything that I had to offer.

On Dec. 4th, 2008, I received my first chemo and target drugs. On Dec. 23, 2008, I had my second infusion of chemo and drugs. When the doctor examined my breast, it had completely changed. Before the drugs, it was hard like an orange and distorted. With my second infusion, the breast was soft, hanging normally, and the nipple had popped out. What was stranger was that you couldn’t feel anything hard inside the breast. Where was the tumor? So far, it never reappeared.

They ordered a CT scan on February 3rd, 2009 so they could peak inside the body. They found nothing in the left breast and the lymph nodes. In some place on my liver, the cancer was gone. The places I had left measured a drop of 70%. Again, they couldn’t find a dead tumor. So they continued with the target drugs and chemo.

On April 9th, 2009, they revisited the liver through CT scans. My oncologist was excited to find the cancer had not increased or reappeared in place where they had seen it. He did not go into a lot of detail. It was explained to me that it had not increased and it was stabilizing nicely. I was not sure what that meant and they didn’t seem to want to give out more information. They were excited and I was confused to why? I never asked.

In the first of May, I received my request for a follow up breast MRI and it was setup. What happened after the MRI I deep appreciate. Around dinnertime, I received a call from the radiologist. We talked for about thirty minutes. He asked me some very interesting questions. Below is the question he asked that meant the most to me.

“Did they prove you had cancer outside the breast or did they just assume you had it?”

It was nice to tell him. I had a breast, lymph node, and bone biopsy that was positive. He peppered me with questions to why I didn’t have the breast removed. Finally, after he exhausted all of his questions, he told me something that meant so much to me.

He said, “When you have cancer, it always leaves a scar, a smug, or something on the liver especially. On the liver, I do not see a smug or a shadow. Your liver looks like you never had cancer at all. I’ve never seen this before.” He also mentioned the right breast had the smug gone too.

He went on wondering what I did. The conversation left me in deep thought. I went back through everything. This is what I concluded, I came into this event of cancer healthy. I wasn’t taking any drugs. Instead, I used my mind to keep myself healthy. Outside of getting a monogram or a pad smear, I never needed to see a doctor.

We all program out minds with our words everyday. I learned how to program it on purpose. On the first day of drugs, I programmed my mind to study the drugs and create other chemicals that would work with those I was given. I wanted the chemicals to remove all signs that I ever had cancer.

I had forgotten about doing this. The radiologist reminded me that I did it, when he asked, “Did you receive radiation?” I told him no. Then he asked, “Have you been doing body building?”

My body tone was barely returning and I still felt weak. He went on to tell me that my left pectoral muscle was plumper than it was on the first MRI. In his summary, he wrote associated findings: “This is intense enhancement of patient’s left pectoral muscle. This is of uncertain significance and if diffused. This likely does not represent tumor involvement before of its diffuse nature.”

Two days before I went in for the MRI, my left ribs shift forward on its own. In my youth, I had twisted my ribs in a trampoline accident. Before the cancer, I programmed my mind to reverse the accident and move my body back to its original form. When my ribs shifted, it felt so wonderful. They had been frozen in the wrong position for forty-four years.

The radiologist reminded me that my mind was still working on moving my body back to its original position. It was there I remembered that I programed it to remove the sign of cancer and work with the doctor’s drugs.

Doctors have talked about for years how powerful our minds are. They can work against or for us. You choose it with you words. I’m so grateful that I learned how to capture the power of the mind and change lives.

You are probably wondering what this blog is all about! Let me tell you.

Let me introduce myself. My name is LaRene Ellis. I came into this life like everyone else. I wasn’t hatched but what happened afterward was different. I lost my parents and siblings. It was sad that I never was allowed to belong to a family. It changed my life and made me who I am today. A person full of hope and joy. It changed my life to where I help others get through their tough times to put a smile on their face.

My childhood was taken from me. It put me a deep depression at the age of four. Happiness was a foreign feeling. Out of it, I learned a simple recipe to live life with joy even during the challenge of breast cancer. In my book, How to Rebuild Shattered Dreams. I will give you a simple recipe that you can follow so you can be happy no matter what is happening in your life. You’ll learn to be in control.

What I learned helped when breast cancer knocked on my door. The recipe allowed me to feel joy and happiness through chemo and all the challenges you face. The experience made filled me with gratitude for my past. What I learned made it all worth while. The peace to know ‘I’m not afraid of the future and I’m not hiding my past. I enjoy the moment without baggage. It keeps me always in control.

On my website, My Journal - has stories in it about how I got started writing. You might find it interesting or numb. I don’t know. It’s hard to put yourself out there, when you’re really shy. If you knew me, you would know how hard this is. I do it because I have hope and I know how you can have it too.

Seminars - By request of my readers, this is what I started to do when I contracted Breast Cancer. It’s Her2/neu – Positive Breast Cancer at stage four. It is a vicious cancer that likes to move fast and it did. I had it in my liver and bones besides my breast. It’s out of my breast with 70% gone in liver after nine weeks. Now, they are focused on my liver. I hope to get back to presenting seminars that changes people’s lives permanently. I teach how to live without fear and have hope as a constant companion. You will okay no matter what happens to you in your life.

Case Studies - Are different areas that I’ve helped people overcome. I started this page right before I contracted cancer. I have a lot more to put into it and I will as I get time. If you know someone who is facing cancer treatment,  you’ll find the herbs and oils that have helped me eliminate some of the side effects of chemo. You can purchase from me some of the remedies. During chemo, I wasn’t able to go out in public so I would appreciate buying anything on line.  I’m not making money from it after my overhead of shipping it myself to you. I hope I do not go into the hole.  There is not a large profit margin in herbs and oil, which is why you don’t see everyone jumping into trying to push them to make money. Some of the remedies, you will have to purchase from the store and they worked wonderfully. I hope they do for you too.

Positive Living – Here you will find video made by other authors regarding positive life style. I’ve started with a video from the author ‘The Secret.’ She has a beautiful video about affirmations. I have tips on how to get the most out of the videos and how to apply them to your life. Each week, I plan on adding a new video.

Look around and I hope you find something that will help you in my articles. Don’t feel like you need to buy my books. If you choose too, I will autograph it from this site. Amazon also carry them. We all like Amazon because they have everything.